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June 23, 2017 Friday
I slept in until about 5AM this morning!  But I had the mother of all dreams and so awoke feeling like I had vertigo as I acclimated to the real world.  The only way to share the dream is to share my Heart Talks about it.

My Love I had a terrible dream last night
Could it be the future gave me such fright

We were in a mall have never been before
I bought something too small in a store

Got separated from others couldn’t find car
Wandered through the mall going very far

I’d bump into people names didn’t know
Would tell me things no longer did know

Around the corridors in fright I went
Praying to God that help would be sent

I went through a door but lost in the way
Went back inside got caught in the fray

Grew more scared didn’t remember name
Every place in mall just seemed the same

I stood in a place as people just went by
For help my heart just wanted to cry

But I stood there not knowing what to do
Why My Love didn’t I cry out to You

Everything lost even that too small coat
My cry of fear was caught in my throat

People went by I was cut off from all
Lost and alone in that unknown mall

I wanted to scream but I had no voice
All stripped away no longer with choice

My mind was gone lost stripped away
No longer was aware of hour or day

The real fear came when dream did end
Will I become this someday in the end                                               6/23/17


            Later in the day had a screaming pain in my ear and then a terrible pressure in my head.  Felt giddy and almost drunk, and experience I have not had for about 39 years.

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