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I groveled in fear and wept bitter tears She told me to not leave a mess at night my plate tilted and crumbs spilled out in the dark I went on my knees in fear she would be angry I had made a mess how to face her and shame became fear how long I wept in fear I do not know the shame and fear hang in even today
May 28, 2024 “ 5 ¶ And the heavens will praise Your wonders, O LORD; Your faithfulness also in the assembly of the saints. 6 For who in the heavens can be compared to the LORD? Who among the sons of the mighty can be likened to the LORD? 7 God is greatly to be feared in the assembly of the saints, And to be held in reverence by all those around Him. 8 O LORD God of hosts, Who is mighty like You, O LORD? Your faithfulness also surrounds You. 9 You rule the raging of the sea; When its waves rise, You still them. 10 You have broken Rahab in pieces, as one who is slain; You have scattered Your enemies with Your mighty arm. 11 The heavens are Yours, the earth also is Yours; The world and all its fullness, You have founded them. 12 The north and the south, You have created them; Tabor and Hermon rejoice in Your name. 13 You have a mighty arm; Strong is Your hand, and high is Your right hand. 14 Righteousness and justice are the foundation of Your throne; Mercy and truth go before
He is still here but now unseen He is watching me even now I can feel his presence often I must be going mad-aren’t I Between PTSD and bad dreams Am I in a paranoid delusion Is this mental or spiritual trouble Does it even really matter to me He is still watching me-but why There is no hostility in his gaze I just feel uncomfortable by it Please go away, please go away 4/22/2024
May 27, 2024 “ 1 ¶ «A Contemplation of Ethan the Ezrahite.» I will sing of the mercies of the LORD forever; With my mouth will I make known Your faithfulness to all generations. 2 For I have said, “Mercy shall be built up forever; Your faithfulness You shall establish in the very heavens.” 3 “I have made a covenant with My chosen, I have sworn to My servant David: 4 ‘Your seed I will establish forever, And build up your throne to all generations.’” Selah” (Ps alms 89:1-4 NKJV) “ I will sing of the mercies of the Lord forever I will sing, I sing I will sing of the mercies of the Lord forever I will sing of the mercies of the Lord With my mouth, will I make known Thy faithfulness, Thy faithfulness With my mouth, will I make known Thy faithfulness to all generations I will sing of the mercies of the Lord forever I will sing, I sing I will sing of the mercies of the Lord forever I will sing of the mercies of the Lord ” (We sang this at Navig
Ethan אֵיתָן‎ ‘ Eythan ay-thawn’ Used 8 times in Authorized Version Ethan= "enduring" 1) an Ezrahite known for his wisdom 2) a grandson of Judah, father of Azariah 3) a Kohathite descendant of Levi 4) a Merarite son of Kushaiah, descendant of Levi
May 26, 2024 “ 10 ¶ Will You work wonders for the dead? Shall the dead arise and praise You? Selah 11 Shall Your lovingkindness be declared in the grave? Or Your faithfulness in the place of destruction? 12 Shall Your wonders be known in the dark? And Your righteousness in the land of forgetfulness? 13 But to You I have cried out, O LORD, And in the morning my prayer comes before You. 14 LORD, why do You cast off my soul? Why do You hide Your face from me? 15 I have been afflicted and ready to die from my youth; I suffer Your terrors; I am distraught. 16 Your fierce wrath has gone over me; Your terrors have cut me off. 17 They came around me all day long like water; They engulfed me altogether. 18 Loved one and friend You have put far from me, And my acquaintances into darkness.” (Ps 88:10-18 NKJV) Can God help me if I am dead Is God faithful in destruction Can I see God’s works in the dark God and my family have cut me off selah Prayerful question: Does I
He is watching me I saw him last night he stood quietly just staring at me never looking away for a very long time he is still watching I can’t see him but he is watching I don’t know him or what he wants I can feel his eyes watching me still it disturbs me I feel uncomfortable I feel very uneasy why won’t he talk he is still watching 4/20/2024