Memorial Day 2020

I saw men die                              and I died

I saw through propellers                and I was shredded

I held another's skin                     and I became raw

I pieced person parts                     and I shattered

I drank to live                             and I drank to die

I hid the pain                             and the pain festered

I hid who I was                           and lost who I am

I lied to myself                            and became a lie

I was supposed to die                  why didn’t I

I was not able to have children     why did I

I was not to live long                  why didn’t I

I was supposed to forget                  why didn’t I

I have failed my wife

I have failed my children

I have failed my God

I have failed my life