The pain is a wondrous agony

leaving me writhing in bed

Tears flowing down my face

burning trails like tiny streams

Fear unknown over forty years

disturbing my mind and soul

Anxiety besieges my life

destroying hopes blessing

Sleep evades me daily

weeks without make me weak

The shadows dance around me

and I am out of step with life

Sounds frighten and surprise me

being from nowhere and nothing

When will it end

How will it end

Will it end

Or will I end