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10/21/2022 Pain does not celebrate Thank God its Friday for every day is the same to pain, even Sunday. I could wax eloquent and pious and say Friday is the day Jesus died for our sin but I cannot. Even the suffering of God can get lost in pain, especially when it goes on for years. Pain is like water and searches out every weak place in your life and wears at it until you crack. Over time pain wears down all the nice thoughts about how we do not deserve to hurt like this until we are just left with pain. Pain is a jealous master that seeks to destroy everything in our life so you will be left only with pain. I have hurt for over 40 years and I am still learning about pain. I write about hope because without hope pain will destroy you. Or maybe pain finds that part of broken humanity that is self-destructive? There is a difference. I write about grace and seek to live out grace because often that is all I have. The hope of grace and the brief joy when either I receive or offer grace. Without hope and grace I would fall into despair and either become bitter or suicidal. With hope and grace there is the hope of life beyond mere existence. A hope of life. DO NOT GET LOST IT PAIN!!! For then you are indeed lost!!!


¶ «To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.» The heavens declare the glory of God; And the firmament shows His handiwork. Psalm 19:1

 

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