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August 18, 2017 Friday

            Today is a little better though I didn’t sleep well.  Bonnie and I did our devotion and the hymn was the first one Bonnie learned to play.  It seems to be getting harder and the bad times are getting longer and the good times are not only getting shorter but not as good.

            This last time I really struggled to pray and that makes everything even worse.  My time with God is a time to refresh and renew and for My Love to re create me.  I can face anything if I can just spend time with My Love.

            When this all started to get bad twice I asked My Love to take it away.  I was so glad to be at First where I believed I could minister at my fullest.  But My Love told me that He would heal me through it and not from it.  About 40 years ago My Love healed me from a terminal blood disease so I really can’t complain.  Every day, no matter how bad, is a gift from My Love and I try to use it to glorify Him and make Him smile!

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